Andrew

Fri, 23 Jan 2009 06:43:25 GMT

So I'm finally here. Rider. I'm living at college again.

It didn't quite hit me until I was on my way over here. And then it hit me again when I got my room key, then yet again when I moved my stuff in. I think just now I finally felt the last wave of omigodimincollege as I'm laying in bed about to go to sleep. It's pretty awesome.

My roommate is really chill, so things should work out pretty well. The walk to Justin's place is a bit much though. Actually, my building, the TKE house, and my parking spot are all in a very inconvenient triangle, but I'll get used to it. I'll just make sure to always have my headphones on me. Apparently, I'm pretty close to a lot of other important things, like the dining hall and fitness center. I haven't fully explored everything yet though.

I actually am beginning to wish I had gotten out of work this weekend. The fact that I have to go home tomorrow makes this whole experience of moving in feel less real. I think it detracts from it a little, but I'll get over it. Gotta keep making money... especially considering this somewhat... impulsive purchase that I am currently doing this update with >.>

Aaaanyway, tomorrow the only thing I have to do is meet with an adviser to sort out the rest of my schedule, then it's back home for a weekend of work (not closing, thank god). Then, back to school (haha, I can say that now!) for the ensuing shit-show that Saturday night should prove to be. And by shit-show, I of course mean fucking awesome party. I can't wait.

...even for class on Monday :]

Why do I continue to fail at this?

Sun, 18 Jan 2009 07:43:55 GMT

Remember when I said I'd write in this thing more? Probably not, because it was a loooong time ago.

Yet here I am again, up late, just sitting here, listening to music, trying to compile and sort my thoughts in such a fashion so I might be able to turn them into a journal update.

So I'm starting school at Rider soon. I'm super excited, but would probably be more so and also show it more if I didn't have some more bullshit to sort through. For instance, where the fuck I'm going to live. See, I was supposed to live with my friend Brandon, who I met through Justin from visiting Rider last fall. He didn't have a roommate, so I was going to just move into his room. Through circumstance beyond his control, however, he is now commuting, leaving me without a roommate. This normally wouldn't be an issue... I figured they'd just stick someone in there who I didn't know and I'd make a new friend. I got a call the other day though telling me that they wanted to move me into a different building waaaay the fuck across campus, when I would have been right next to Justin's building, which would have been very convenient. I did find out though that I could pay a little extra to rent out the room I was supposed to live in as a single, which would be optimal. That would give any guest I had a place to sleep, which would work out awesomely. Apparently though, they already changed my room assignment to the waythefuckacrosscampus building... and were supposed to call me back regarding switching back and renting it as a single. Now I have to call Monday and hope to god that I can get this all sorted out in the way that I would like it. As for classes, that shouldn't be a problem. Even if I wait til I move in and go personally meet with an advisor, I should be able to get into all of the classes I want to. I'm not too worried about that.

As amazing as this winter break has been (and it has been quite incredible... too good for me to recap at this point, because in my laziness of not posting too much has happened), I can't wait for school to start. I feel like I'm finally moving forward.

It's going to be a great semester.

Random ramblings

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 06:56:21 GMT

Rrr, I always seem to only manage about two to three posts every time I decide to "get back into" livejournal. I need to work on consistency, and not in the sense that I consistently stop posting.

Nothing really too exciting going on. It's great that everyone's home now for winter break, and I get to hang out with them all, and even better that I'll be leaving with them this time (sort of). I can't even describe how excited I am to be going to Rider in a month.

So Christmas is tomorrow. Every year I can never believe how quickly it comes. This is the first year I actually tried to buy presents for my whole family. So far I've got my mom and brother, but my dad and sister will prove to be a little more difficult, especially considering that I have to find presents for both of them tomorrow morning before work (1 - 5 -.-). Oh well, I'm sure I'll fine something.

It was funny, actually. After a couple hours of shopping, the person who I had spent the most money on was myself >.>. I felt really bad about it... but I finally found a copy of Jimmy Eat World's Clarity, which I had been looking for for liek, evar. I had downloaded it at one point, but the tracks were all messed up and cut short. It's a great album. By the end of the night though, I had bought more for other people, so I feel better now :D.

Oh, quick announcement, because I tend to do this when I am extremely impressed with a game, band, anime, etc. Anyone with a PS3 who enjoys RPGs and/or strategy games should definitely check out Valkyria Chronicles. It apparently sold like crap for whatever reason, but it is one of the most unique, enjoyable games I've played in a long while. Interesting characters, solid story, and refreshingly innovative game play mechanics have easily made it one of my favorite PS3 titles to date.

That's all for now. Hopefully I'll continue this.

Happy holidays, everyone!

NEW PIC

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 22:57:09 GMT

"Ah, that's a horse with a sword on his head, and he's there to guard my hopes and dreams."

Hah, I just had to. Mad props to anyone who knows what this is from.

I like this one...

Sun, 14 Dec 2008 03:54:52 GMT

Put your MP3 player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.

Honey It's Getting Close to Midnight

If you want it, you can have it
Five on fire
We come from the land of the ice and snow
All of seventeen

There is unrest in the forest
Used to be one of the rotten ones and I liked you for that
I'm full of regret
If its true that a rich man leads a sad life

Wait, wait for the moment to come
I don't wanna talk to you anymore
The lunatic is on the grass
I am, I am, I am

Standing in line to see the show tonight
The dust from a four day affair is now landing
I'm mesmerized
After all the jacks are in their boxes

Let me taste
So we see the opportunities
Heartbreak, incarnate
There's no need for you to say you're sorry

As the person who I so selfishly stole this from, I'm going urge everyone to try to guess what songs these lines are from, for funzies :D

I didn't realize how big a geek I was until halfway through this post

Thu, 11 Dec 2008 03:31:12 GMT

asdfgdsf!

So like, I haven't coded anything all summer, and all fall for that matter. I wanted to work on my game from last semester, but I never found time. And nooow, I have to code bits and pieces for my game design project. Like, hugenormous final project that will determine pass of fail for the most part. Gaaah, so much to remember about Java, it's annoying. I'm finding that I remember a lot of concepts and stuff, but I seem to have forgotten the basic principles of how to code a neat, coherent program. I used to be able to bang out the framework for any class I needed in a few minutes, but now everything is all jumbled and weird. Also, being at the top of my game allowed me to sometimes think up more creative, efficient solutions to problems, but that's gone now. Oh, and the compile errors! Silly, silly errors I keep making, and it's taking me longer than it should to find them. Ah well, I supposed after a bit more work it'll all start to come back.

I'm never going to stop coding again! :O

Anyway, I'm actually putting off this project right now by posting here. I did some solid work on it earlier, but I should probably get back to it by 11. I also have to think of other shit to do for my sociology presentation tomorrow. It's really no big deal, I can probably just wing it and do fine, since my professor and the class in general is so laid back. I'm not tooooo worried. I'll probably put something together in my break between classes.

And theeeeen, I'm all done! Only my criminal justice final remains along the path to winter break, and Rider. Woooo.

wat

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 00:48:03 GMT

My goodness, do I ever need a new icon. As badass as inverted Lloyd is, I feel like I need to get something fresh.

Any suggestions are welcome, as I have absolutely no idea what it should be :D

A Not So Epic Comeback

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 04:32:07 GMT

So. Back to real time.

I got into Rider. I'm transferring there in the spring. I'm really excited. I'm going to miss the game design program at RV, but I'd much rather be out of the house living with friends. Plus, there are game courses at Rider. Luckily I already have a bunch of friends thanks to Justin, and one of them is going to be my roommate. It's pretty sweet.

Ah, what else...

I've been working a lot. I got a second job at Pet Valu, which is pretty cool. My boss is amazing. She's really chill for the most part. As long as you do your work, she's your best friend. She's funny as hell too. Unfortunately, I had to tell her I'm leaving in January, but I'll be back in the summer. I'm still at Pizza Brothers too, which is good as always. I hit my one year mark last month, which is pretty sweet. First job I've held this long since Shop Rite. I really like having a job for a long time. You know, when you start to feel really comfortable, and like you really belong there.

Nothing really happening on the relationship front, but I remain, as I have for maybe the past year or so, somewhat apathetic. At least, I try to. It's not really quit the priority it used to be (as evidenced by 90% of my Livejournal up to this point), but I still think it'd be pretty cool to have someone to cuddle with.

Oh, and I started playing WoW again. Mostly because of the expansion. I am loving my Death Knight.

Nothing else I feel like reporting right now. I'll hopefully remember to post in this thing more, because it really is quite cathartic. Also, it's fun looking back on all of my old posts, and I would like to keep that going.

One more thing - I actually sort of like Bright Eyes now, and it's because of this song. It's really awesome.

VERY OLD POST

Tue, 09 Dec 2008 04:05:03 GMT

*Just a quick note - I wrote this a VERY LONG TIME AGO. Like, many months ago in summer. I have no idea why I never finished it or posted it, but I wrote so much here I figured it warranted a tardy posting anyway.*

It's been a while since I've posted anything here. I'm randomly up really early today and I don't know why. I went to bed at around maybe... 2, and I woke up at 7. For some reason I just felt like getting up and eating a bowl of cereal. I'll probably go back to sleep in an hour or two, but for now, I need something to keep me occupied.

Anyway...

So much awesome has been happening, I really wouldn't be able to talk about all of it. Let's seeeee, since my last post...

I turned 20.
I went to the shore with some of the best people I know and had an amazing time.
I just hung out with friends in general. A lot.
I ate way too much taco bell and wendy's and applebee's.
I watched Death Note, which I think has dethroned Bebop as my favorite anime.
I FINALLY found a copy of Metal Gear Solid: The Twin Snakes. I'm so into it. I'm almost done, and plan on playing 2 and 3 soon, and then maybe finally buying that ps3 I've been mulling over for a while so I can play 4. I feel like it's a series that I never got into for whatever reason, but always wondered about. I finally decided that it seems to be a big enough part of the gaming universe that I should check it out. Also, for those of you who have seen Metal Gear Awesome and find it funny now, it's even more hilarious after you play the game.

That was a brief summary of my last monthish. I will, however, talk about Saturday.

Saturday I went to New York with Justin and Krissy. I think we got there at around 4:30, because if I remember correctly, out train left Somerville at 3:21ish. It looked like it was going to rain, which wasn't too great, but luckily it wasn't raining when we got out of Penn Station. We decided to go to China Town to find this little underground shopping area with all kinds of awesome stuff. I rode on the subway for the first time. It wasn't nearly as sketchy as I had imagined it. The thing I realized about New York City is that the amount of normal people who just live and work there outweighs the sketchballs by so much that you barely notice. Of course, you'll see a really shady person from time to time, but I never really felt uncomfortable. So we got off the subway, and it started to rain. It was fuckin pouring for pretty much our entire walk to this place. We got off at a different spot than Justin did last time, because he didn't realize there were two on Canal Street, so we had to walk a few blocks. That was fine, but the rain made it... interesting. I found it amusing that almost EVERY shop on the streets pulled out their umbrellas which they were pushing on people for five bucks. I didn't feel like buying one. I like running around in the rain, but I usually like being able to dry myself afterwards (I found out later that Sean bought an umbrella and it fell apart shortly after). I felt bad walking into these peoples' stores literally dripping wet. I dried off to the point where I wasn't dripping eventually, and checked out the stores more. This place was AWESOME. If you're into anime or gaming, this place has all kinds of little things you'd want to buy but would never want to admit that you bought. For example... I spent $10 on a Death Note replica (when I say Death Note, I mean the actual Death Note, for those of you who know what I'm even talking about). It came with this cool feather pen and a cd, which, I was disappointed to find out, didn't actually have songs from the anime. It's a tribute cd for the live action movie or something, which a bunch of different Japanese artists on it. There were also this cool little plastic figurine things that came in a little box. You got a random character, out of like 6 different ones. I got a Death Note one, and got Light. It's pretty sweet. I won't tell you how much I paid for it. You might find it necessary to make fun of me. I wanted to get a wall scroll, but didn't since it'd be annoying to carry around at the concert. Also, if I had more money, I would have been VERY tempted to buy a $50 Evangelion Unit 01 figure. I'm such a geek at heart. Oh, I also bought all of Hellsing for $20. Gotta love NYC. After that little adventure, we headed towards the concert. We were hungry, so we all got sausage egg and cheese sandwiches at a Dunkin' Donuts that was conveniently right next to the theater. At this point, we had been wet for at least an hour or two, and all I wanted to do was get inside and buy a dry shirt.

*also, real post inc soon*

Thu, 22 May 2008 06:44:08 GMT

Summer is here, though it hasn't really felt like it over the past few days. The weather has been so crappy, and I've been sick. I hate it. All I've wanted to do is get a nice game of ultimate frisbee going, and it's always raining, windy, or really muddy. Or all three.

I'm really bored of WoW these days. I don't know why I'm still playing. It'd be nice to play with the group again, maybe get a little more into the pve scene this time around. I kind of just want to wait til the expansion. Meh. I think maybe one of you will know what I'm talking about, lulz.

I'm also really bored of everything me and my friends do. Brawl, munchkin, settlers of catan. We need some new stuff to do. Bowling was a good idea, we should probably do that again. Lazer tag is also a great idea, and going to the break is always fun.

Also today I randomly had the idea to invite a bunch of people over for a spur of the moment bbq. I thought it'd be fun to be outside, maybe throw the disc around a little, mess around on my trampoline, listen to some music, and have nice grilled food. Unfortunately, the weather sucked still.

I'm kind of going all over the place in this entry. I started watching Evangelion again, because I discovered recently that it's online. It's so weird. I was SO obsessed with that show a while back, and I've only seen it once. It's quite the nostalgic experience. (<3 Ayanami ^_^) Maybe I'll watch Hellsing next :o

Anyway...

My birthday is friday :D. I'll no longer be a teenager. It's weird to think about. I don't think I'm having a party or anything. Oh well.

That's all really. I just sort of felt like updating with mundane events in my life. I think I'm going to go watch Evangelion now.

Also...

Here's to not holding on for the sake of holding on. Let's see if I can stay true to that.

Wed, 14 May 2008 07:56:11 GMT

Continuing the chain of meme yoinkage, because I love these things.

I know I posted one of these recently, but this one's a little different, and still fun. So go! Comment! :D

Comment and I will...

1. Tell you why I friended you.
2. Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc.
3. Tell you something I like about you.
4. Tell you a memory I have of you.
5. Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
6. Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
7. In return, you must post this in your LJ.

On a completely unrelated note, I saw Iron Man tonight, and it kicked immense amounts of ass. If you haven't seen it yet, do so. Do it nao.

That is all :]

Mon, 28 Apr 2008 05:38:10 GMT

So I had a totally bangin weekend. Without going into too much detail, I'll just share a few conclusions I came to.

1. Wawa is WAY too far away from my house to walk to, but alcohol makes it easier.
2. Beruit is WAY harder than beer pong, but just as much fun.
3. Bethlehem is WAY sketchier than New Brunswick.
4. People who keep machetes on their magnetic knife holder are utterly nuts and likely to roast a whole pig in their back yard.
5. Perkins != Denny's, yet it still fulfilled all of the expectations I would have had for Denny's
6. People should be allowed to install rocket launchers on their cars.

Now I've got one more week of classes, and then finals. I just have a few C++ assignments to bang out, and I have to finish my game for Data Structures. I think I'm going to do the Calc review sheet and take the final, and just see what grade he gives me. At this point, I really just want the semester to be over. No more 9 am's for me.

All in all, I'm pretty damn happy right now.

Tue, 22 Apr 2008 17:09:27 GMT

Rawr. I'm bored and can't seem to get past this little mental block I have with that game that I'm programming.

I totally said I'd write in this more, but it's been a couple of weeks since I last posted, and it was only song lyrics. Bleh

So I think I finally fucked up Calc for good. Really what it boils down to is two huge errors in judgment.

1) Taking a 9am class
2) Not dropping when I had the chance

I literally had the drop slip in my hand and half filled out, but out of pride and a desire to prove my parents wrong, I ripped it up and threw it out. That was a mistake. I just didn't have it in me to do what I needed to in order to succeed in that class. Luckily, my other classes didn't suffer. Barring some disaster with this game project AND the final, I'm pretty sure I'm getting an A in Data Structures. C++ isn't so clear, but I think as long as I finish all of the online assignments by the end (and apparently code a hangman game, which I wasn't even aware we were supposed to actually be working on?) then I should get an A. All I have to do for Macro is get an A or high B on the final for the A.

So 3 A's and an F... maybe... depends how generous my professor is. He might let me off with a D, or even a C again. Even still, I feel like I improved yet again. I know I could have gotten at least a B in Calc if it wasn't so early of a class.

It will all be over in 3 weeks. All over. Then I can go into the summer with a clean slate, maybe take a summer class or two, and prepare for the fall semester, where I will be taking at least two game focused courses with my C++ professor (AWESOME guy). Very excited.

Not nearly as excited, however, as I am for the summer. It's not even May and there is already so much awesome planned. I can't wait.

This was fun back then, so I figured I'd post it again.

Sun, 06 Apr 2008 22:53:52 GMT

As I continue to dig through my journal, I occasionally stumble upon a fun little post like this.

Reply to this and...

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of Jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.

i think Blake Schwarzenbach is a pretty cool guy. eh makes good music and doesnt afraid of anything

Wed, 02 Apr 2008 05:35:54 GMT

It's weird to think about the fact that I've had this same journal for over 4 years now. So utterly strange to read my old entries, starting in late 2003, and see what kind of person I was then. I even started re-doing some personality quizzes just for kicks.

Now, years later, I feel the urge to once again keep a log of my daily activities and thoughts.

I'll admit, the main reason I posted in this thing over the past year was just to get attention, whether or not I realized it at the time. Some of you can probably tell from the usual emo-ness of my not-so-frequent posts, hinting vaguely at issues I was having concerning whatever girl I happened to be pining for at that moment. It's kind of funny, actually. If you read through carefully, you'll probably find somewhat similar posts that actually have to do with two different girls, at different points of the same cycle I went through with them. There were happy ones, where I thought things were going well. Then there were confused ones. Then there were the OMIGOD I HATE EVERYTHING WHY CANT ANYONE LOVE MEEE, SO RONERY ones.

I'm a fucking moron, and I apologize. Moving on...

I found out today that I got a 95 on my program for Data Structures. Considering I didn't hand in test output or runtime analysis, it was really a gift. An unintentional gift, but hey, I'll take it.

After a big argument with my dad, I decided not to drop Calc. Turns out he was right, I'm not ready for an expensive 4 year school yet. I had a hard time dealing with that truth at first, but now I'm just refusing to accept it. And by refusing to accept it, I mean taking the necessary steps to correct my follies, bountiful as they may be. I started working on everything that I owe my professor, and plan on handing it to him Thursday in a big pile, and asking if I can take a make up test. He's a nice, understanding guy, so he'll probably let me.

Let's seee, what else...

Nothing really. Except I finally appreciate the glory that is Perfecting Loneliness, the album by Jets to Brazil. It took a few listens, but I really really enjoy it now. I think they're considered indie, but I can't really describe them very well. But generally, for anyone who enjoys a good indie/alternative rock band, I highly recommend them. I haven't listened to their other two albums, but I've heard they are equally as awesome.

Well...

Thu, 30 Aug 2007 07:47:51 GMT

How utterly wonderful :)

How could this happen to meeeeeeee? (-.\\)

Thu, 31 May 2007 08:38:58 GMT

Whenever I feel like this, I try to find a song that describes what I'm feeling. Then I listen to it on repeat, and wallow in self pity until I fall asleep. Pathetic, I know. But of all of the songs I've listened to, none of them quite capture the feeling like this one does. It's simple, but brilliant. I just never realized what it was really talking about until I happened to actually listen to the words coming out of my mouth as I sang along in the car tonight. And the best part is, it's not a depressing song! At least, the music isn't.

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin' the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
And speak my point of view
But it's not sane, It's not sane

I just want some one to say to me
I'll always be there when you wake
Ya know I'd like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I'll have it made

And I don't understand why I sleep all day
And I start to complain that there's no rain
And all I can do is read a book to stay awake
And it rips my life away, but it's a great escape

escape......escape......escape......

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
ya don't like my point of view
ya think I'm insane
Its not sane......it's not sane

Replace "read a book" with "play WoW" and there you have it. Perfect.

Another ending, another new beginning...

Fri, 04 May 2007 08:15:29 GMT

I just realized that tonight is my last night at Rowan, at least until the fall. There are so many things I'd like to say, but I don't really see the point. Stuff happened. I changed. Stuff will continue to happen. I will continue to change.

So it goes.

Let's just see where the summer takes us...

Life is a silly bitch...

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 04:24:59 GMT

And I'd like nothing more than to punch it in the face. Really, really hard :)

...

And a nice swift kick to the balls would be more than justified.

MOTHERF-

Thu, 12 Apr 2007 07:51:50 GMT

I finally caved, and despite much hesitaion, swallowed my pride and gave the new Fall Out Boy cd a listen, mostly because a lot of people who I know couldn't stand them before have told me it's somehow pretty good. AND YOU KNOW WHAT. it's NOT TERRIBLE.

WTF WHY AM I A HORRIBLE PERSON :<

*fake edit* Pete Wentz is still a bitch >: |

Kinda trippy, man

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 07:42:21 GMT

What if our entires lives as we know them, up until a certain point, have a much more trivial purpose than we ever could have imagined? And, this being the case, what if each stage of our lives proves only to fulfill a specific purpose which is essential for the next stage beginning, which we will not know until that stage begins? I don't mean the lives of humans on a grand scale, like that of Vonnegut's Sirens of Titan, but on a more personal level.

It's something odd that I have begun to contemplate. A belief in some sort of system like this would require an undying faith in destiny, and even possibly so far as a belief in some force of order which causes things to be. I began considering this, only for my own amusment, but because of recent events in my life. Even as I'm writing this, however, I am realizing new things, and adding to my "theory". Maybe... it's less a determination of your future, but certain things about life up until a point are like keys to locked doors, behind which are exciting new paths, which would be unaccessable without the key. This explanation basically allows for the variable of choice.

The people we meet every day have an impact on our lives. Some more than others. Some will change your life forever, some you will barely even notice. And sometimes, you happen to meet the right person at the right time, when you have the right "key", so to speak, at your disposal. The point I'm getting at is this:

The next stage of my life may very well be determined by the simple fact that I am good at Super Smash Bros. Melee.

Love Hurts...

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 08:33:17 GMT

But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Light Grenades is incredible.

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 06:24:03 GMT

I seem to be blessed with a gift, yet haunted by a curse.

In instances like these, they are one in the same.

Strangely...

Mon, 18 Sep 2006 05:56:04 GMT

...I feel at ease now.

This was a good night. I'm glad it happened.

/emo off

for now :p

I feel like commenting about how much I love Tool. They are so awesome. Most of their songs are heavy enough for me to kick ass in WoW to (harhar this is where matt inserts a comment about me not being able to kick ass in WoW), but at the same time, those songs are... well... I don't know how to explain it best... but they are... deep. They just feel deep. Deep songs, as opposed to shallow songs. I don't know if anyone understands what I'm talking about, but it was the best I could do in desribing it. They can accomodate my "emo" or conemplative moods, as well as pretty much any other mood I'm in. Now I'm going to go play some WoW, I think. Or maybe Ocarina of time. And I have a 9:25 :D.

Later.

Tue, 12 Sep 2006 05:49:46 GMT

I started out feeling really emo tonight, but I'm a bit better for some reason. Maybe it's because after much contemplation, I may be ready to actually do something about things. Yeah, that's vague. But that's how I roll.

Not really, I just don't want to get too specific in this instance. It's kind of personal ^^

...too personal... for my personal journal >.>

stoof, me, bed time (but not really yet)!